&& joke me something awful...
Monday, September 04, 2006
12:45 AM
i'm as good as dead man! i'm tired.. both mentally and physically!
i wana get my own life.. i'm sick and tired of abiding ppl's rules and words...
i envy ppl having their own freedom. i envy ppl whom have their own rites.
i fight for my own rites.. but daddy always wins...
i cant wait to get out of ctss!!! haha.. a yr plus more!!! HIP HIP HOOORAY!!!!!
will await for that day to come.. haha.. and when it comes... party!!!!!
gona get my first mini tattoo!!! i'm goin hactic.. and i will make sure my mum and dad cant control me!
anyway.. i have enrolled myself in my new church sunday school.. taking care of little kiddies..
i love kiddies.. * i aint no pedofile* they are juz sweet and innocent.. my first session with the kiddies was last sunday
how nice.... the guys treat me like brothers.. havoc man!!!! the girls sweet and soft.. a tiring day!!! but overall enjoyable..
i cant wait for this sunday's bowling competition! oh yeah.. i'm playing.. but i suck at it.. haha.. wad the hack.. for the fun of it...
well finally i enrolll myself in something which i enjoy and my parents are suportive about.. hope this works out.. and if this taking care of kids thing realli works out.. i might juz enroll myself in early child hood? haha.. who knows.. since i'm giving tuition to pri schoolers..
oh well.. i envy ppl with a success in life.. be it friends, school, relationship, family... i'm juz envious.. well... i dun have neither of it.. terrible aint it? haha.. everyone thinks that i'm ok.. but actually i'm not.. everyone says family is always there.. but where's mine?? i try i do.. but sometimes trying aint enough.. schooll.. dun talk abt it.. everyone knows my subjects sucks.. it's like deteriorating... *if there's such an verb?* anyway.. let's carry on.. friends... hmzz guess u guys should have read my recent post abt nic? haha.. so yeah i guess u guys should noe la... relationship? haha.. always in and out la.. hopeless at it.. haha.. hoping to find 1.. but this yr very goood liao.. i onli had jem!!!! and i was sincere abt him.. realli..!!!!
guess.. that i had a few false hopes on certain ppl.. one naming.. C hmz.. at first thought we had somethign going on.. however, nth did happen but juz dat 1 -2 hours spent.. (last time!!!)
well glad he has found someone that he realli enjoys being with.
think i will read my fairy tale le... haa
i juz bought it today!!!! buaiz ppl
and gd luck to those taking their N's
...like a kiss on the neck of just friends &&
