&& joke me something awful...
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
9:22 AM
i've gotten to know this guy name marcus. and yesh he is some sweet heart. for example, like even though he is like damn tired, he still bothered to call me and talk. hmz.. marcus if u ever see this, thanks and u realli didnt have to. i'm sorry marcus for the tormentous nitez u put up with me over the phone.
and yesh i'm up here to make a confession. over this 4 days i've known him, i started to like him. i mean seriously. and i got into trouble or can be said as we? ok i've known peter through irc. and yesh i have certainly known peter longer den marcus. however, during the period i have know peter, i didnt like him a single bit. it's like i oculd tell he aint himself. besides between me and peter there wasnt any chemistry going on. i mean i was like going with the flow through out the whole conversation i had with him. but when i first started to talk to marcus, it's like JACKPOT! haha DING DING!!!!! CELEBRATE haha
like as if i strike 4D. nvm... that was a rough summary of how i got to know marcus.
so today, marcus called me when i was in the car with mum. haha.. and they indirectly talk to each other. and yesh the whole conversation was funny. as usualy mummy was being extremly thick skin.
gosh.. i missin him like hell... wad am i to do? i dun wan my emotions and feelings get caught up with his education and stuff. like HE WANS TO EMBARK His tertiary edution in RJC.. and it aint sRJC. LIKE he has to work double-ly hard to get his arse there la. hai ya... how how how!!! it's like all BGR, sure bound to affect someone. i mean, i dun wan to be soo god damn selfish. i mean that's why i'm hating myself now. i juz miss/ like him so much that, i hate myself to do this to him while he is having his major exams. am i realli that selfish>? gosh.
anyway, ya i called peter today. and yesh, he told me this,"eh ur darling slp liao. dun have to call him."
so i'm like thinking.. ok maybe marcus is like making some excuses to not talk to him.
so i replied peter;"oh ok.. like why?"
and peter struck me in my head.
by saying this," hello, u have been talking to him through out the nite for the past few days. who wouldnt be tired."
so i hang up his call.
den called marcus. and he sounded so dead tired. i guess i have realli got myself into a big boo booo man. i mean like everytime i asked him if he was tired, he would say he is very energize. den i thought it was true. but he was juz trying to keep me company. i was so dumb enough to not have known. ARGHZ!!! that's why i hate myself!! i gues.. i have to put up with a solution, to tell marcus that we have to set a time to go slp. if not this would nvr end. and he would get even more tired each day. plus he is having his O's and the more he needs the proper slping hours.
MARCUS I'M SO SORRY FOR THE TORMENTOUS NITES!
and yesh, marcus and i came about knowing each other thankx to peter. yep. i so totally sorry for peter. i mean he likes me longer den marcus. however, i turn out to like marcus instead of him. am i wrong? well marcus and i like each other. and yesh we are guessing that peter have something up his sleeves. and we could not even get a single clue wad he intends to do. ARGH!!! driving us mad. oh well.. nvm..
the thing is i like marcus. i miss marcus and hell no anyone esp peter is going to change that feeling i have for marcus.
he is like my apple of my apple pie. it's without him, i guess i would still be in a lost world. the phobia i guess. the phobia of likin someone is indeed very torturing. thankfully, god had like found someway to link me to him i guess. haha and tghe link was peter.. how sweet. i bet god would thank him genrously for being such a helpful messenger.
i would also THANK GOD SINCERELY AND WHOLE HEARTLY AND WADEVER NICE SMOOCHY SWEESHY WORDS U WOULD FIND IN THE DICTIONARY for letting me know marcus! :D
marcus, i juz wana tell u i miss u a whole lot.
PS those whom r reading, dun worry.. we r juz taking it slow. haha
...like a kiss on the neck of just friends &&
